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Accha hotat emn holo kno?? Hotat sotto ta etodin por kno aslo samne… Sobai bolto he is very cunning… Er proof to ajk peyei gelam… R ami bolod hoye roilam… Kicchu shikhlam na tamzid theke… Ei rokom feelings amr arekbar hoisilo jokhn tamzid bolsilo o Biye kore felse… I was stuck… Ekhn abr sei stuck hoye gesi… Kalk na jani ki ki shunte hoi…. Lopa apu k knock dewa ta ki vul chilo naki right chilo?? Amr kauk na janiye eto dur agano thik chilo naki vul chilo??? Ami blank ei moment e… Vabte partesi na kichu… Kadteo partesi na… Chokh diye pani astese thik e eta k thik kanna bole kina jani na ami… 24july last meet korsilam or sathe to give him letters and flowers… I thought i got him back… Evabe vul vangbe tai bole…. Ekdom numb lagtese sob… Amr ki more jawa uchit hobe? Sacrifice my life jate o r karo sathe emn na kore?? Ami more gele or kichu jabe asbe??? O to amk peyei felse tai na? Kichu jabe asbe bole mone hoi na… Ami ki korbo ekhn?? Ghumabo naki.kadbo? Naki kauk call dibo? Ore call disilam call dhorlo na bollo baire, sotto na mittha k jane… Amk eto raag kore ask korse amr kotha kare bolso j esob info tmk dei? Accha amk lukanor ki ase??? Image nosto hobe tai? Oikhaner manush jene jabe parag valo chele na? Ei voy? Eto coward kno o? Ami to jantam chelera sahosi meyera vitu hoi… Ekhn to dekhtesi ulta… Or cunningness r koto sojjo korbo??? If u r going through hell, keep going… Beparta ki ei rokom? Keep going? Suddenly duniya ultay jabe vabi nai… Ami more gele k besi kosto pabe? Ma? Abbu? Shihub? Naki onnora? Sobai koidin por vule jabe, maa abbu shihub vulbe na… Accha morbo kmne? Ghum er tab khabo naki insulin nibo? Insulin nile death sure… Hypoglycemia coma Theke keu bachate parbe na sure… Insulin is better choice… I think… Accha kalk dekhi apu r ki ki bole…. Sojjo korte pari kina… Parag er attitude dekhi amr proti, then decision nibo… Je duniya te thakbo naki thakbo na… Amr eto pap niye porokale mukh dekhabo kmne?? Tar moddhe suicide!! Janazao hobe na… Abbur onk kosto hobe as he loves me the most… Maa hoyto pagol hoye jabe… R karo tmn kichu asbe jabe na!! Sobai vule jabe amk… Accha ami more gele ei guilt niye ki parag beche thakte parbe je he killed me…? Naki or kichui asbe jabe na… Ami to or kichu lagi na kichu asbe jabe kno? Etao sotto… Nijer kobor nijei khudlam… Good very good… I am proud of you beli… You are so god damn lucky…. I am so jealous of you… Ki kopal niye jonmaiso!!! Wow!! Best ekdom!!