16july

My birthday… We spent the whole day together… We went to mawa resort… We done everything… Things he wanted from me… I mean sex… I just went not because i love him but because he wanted so… Ever since we met he tried to reach for my body… I think he only like my body… A girls body… If you are getting it for free, then why not use it… He got what he wanted… On 11july we made an agreement that we will be in touch even after we get married.. As you know we cant marry each other because of religious problem… So we made peace on this… But everyday i have to remind him that i am here… Unknowingly i am making him my center of universe again… But you know he doesnt think me as a part of his… Jokhn time hobe reply dibe, er age ami message diye more geleo reply dibe na, call dhorbe na tar dorkar chara… Even kothao sunbe na amr… So where i stand in his life…??? I have no single idea… Life etto twist and turn nicche kno amr sathe??? Ki korsi ami, as far as i remember i hurt two person one kawser another roki… They loved me but that moment i wasn’t in that position to return back their love, i really wasn’t… Ei jonno ki ei sasti…!! Bole na j i loved someone who didn’t loved me back, someone loved me and i didn’t loved him back, i dont know which one is worse to break your own soul or to break another… I guess later one is worst to break another human being…because curse lage.. I am living the curse… Er por theke ore r kichu bolbo na, i will vent here… Jedin suicide er decision nibo sumit k dibo ore egula send kore dite… He will live with the pain of killing me…